— The freedom that comes when you let go of the 'expert position'
At some point,
I can now clearly explain why
it became difficult to write content.
Unknowingly, I was in a 'teaching position'.
A teacher
must always be prepared.
Always be right,
always be able to explain,
always be able to take responsibility.
That position
is heavier than one might think.
The moment you try to look like an expert, your words diminish
The word 'expert'
comes with invisible conditions.
You must have tried enough
You must have learned from trial and error
You must be ready to answer questions
If you do not meet these conditions,
you fall silent.
"It's not organized yet."
"Let me try a bit more before speaking."
"It feels premature to speak now."
So, content
always becomes 'next time'.
But do I really have to teach?
Suddenly, I had this question.
"Why do I have to be a teacher?"
"Why do I always have to stand in front of someone else?"
In fact,
I didn't intend to write
to teach someone.
I just
wanted to share what I had experienced.
The position of being the 'first to try'
So I changed my position.
Expert
Mentor
Instructor
Instead, I started saying things like this.
"This is still experimental."
"This is the process I am going through right now."
"Please join me in figuring out if this is right."
At this moment,
the weight of my words significantly decreased.
Because
this is not about authority,
it's about accompaniment.
By not teaching, the questions increased instead
Something amazing happened.
By not providing answers,
people started asking questions.
"I'm in a similar situation..."
"How did you make a decision on this part?"
"Were you hesitant about this choice?"
This is not evaluation.
It's a conversation.
And conversations
make content sustainable.
The first to try can make mistakes
In this position,
mistakes are allowed.
Because
no conclusions were promised.
Even if you fail
Even if it's ambiguous
Even if it's pending
This is not irresponsibility.
It's honesty.
The true freedom that comes from letting go of the expert position
Now,
I don't think like this anymore.
"Is it okay to say this?"
"Do I have the right to say this?"
Instead, I ask this.
"Will this current process
be meaningful to my future self?"
If it has meaning,
I write it.
That is enough.
In conclusion
You are not someone who creates content
to teach others.
You are
someone who tries first, thinks first,
and hesitates first.
And in this era,
that position is becoming increasingly important.
In the next post,
I will talk about
why accumulated records
suddenly start attracting people at some point,
in other words, the power of slowly accumulated content.